011 / Two More Sleeps

It's hard because in two more sleeps we will be gone. We will be out our my childhood home. It's hard because K doesn't really know what's going on.  She's excited to see Daddy in Seattle. She's happy to be with Nana. But does she know that Grammy & Papa aren't going to be there? Her whole life is going to change. No more baths or story-time with Papa and no more Grammy's Big Tub or making cookies with her. She has spent her whole life in this house. All almost three years. Her room was my childhood room. And "her peoples" - P, her best friend/sister who she has known since she was 7 months old; A, the best caretaker anyone could ever hope for, Aunty S & Uncle J & Baby E - close family, not to mention Grammy & Papa - so many happy memories shared, but so many tears cried at our departure.  Will she even remember living here? She will always be able to say she was born in Hawaii and spent three years here, but I don't think she will remember, and that makes me sad. And as much as I would like to come back, I know that we won't come back, so these years will be all she gets. How lucky was she to have so many loving people around her? To grow up with Mommy, Daddy, Grammy & Papa. She's a pretty cool kid and I know that this is part of the reason.

No matter how many times I remind myself about the opportunities in Seattle, it just doesn't make it any easier to leave.