Saturday, December 29, 2012
003 // Overthinking
DH went public with the move to Seattle on Facebook today. I guess all this really is real, even though he hasn't actually accepted the acceptance yet (something about paperwork not arriving until January). Nevertheless, it's a done deal. Now come the really hard things: 1. Finding a job. and with that insurance. and affordable, safe, childcare for K if I am working. 2. Finding somewhere to live. 3. Affording to move to another state. 4. Organizing and sorting and purging "stuff". 5. Affording to ship our household goods to another state. These are the biggest things that are weighing on my mind in relation to this whole ordeal. And he said that he has been thinking about these things too.
Wednesday, December 26, 2012
002 // Moving
The last time I moved was in 2007. It was just across town, out of my parent's house and into base housing (when DH was in the Navy). I didn't have to take everything; I could go back whenever I wanted to pick up things I missed.
But this move is different - it's more like the moves I made in college. Pack up everything you will need, ship it, mail it, wait months for the packages to arrive, unpack, organize. It wasn't easy going to college from Hawaii. I think I lived out of my suitcase for months. It seemed smarter to just buy new when you got there. This is what DH thinks would be a good idea for us.
He wants to sell everything and buy new when we get there. I am a "stuff" kind of person. I like my stuff. I enjoy the couches we had at our old house, which are now sitting in the storage under the house. I love my special peacock colored lamps that we ordered special, which are now sitting in the storage under the house. I couldn't have been happier with the entertainment center, coffee table, and end tables, that I hardly had a chance to enjoy before they too were put into the storage under the house. Why would I want sell these things? I like the things that I already have.
But then, I don't even know where to begin with moving and organizing. I'm still in the denial stage, the throwing a tantrum (who's the toddler in this family?) stage, the dragging my heels stage. Hawaii is my home; it's where I grew up. My family is here, Mom, Dad, Sister - S, BIL - J, and a new niece, E, on the way in the spring. I like living around my family, I am not sure I want to give that up. And I suppose that's the reason for my hesitation.
I understand that this is better for our whole family, that it's way too expensive in Hawaii, that we can definitely NOT afford to live on my paycheck, heck, we can't even afford to live on our own right now. I get all of that. But, does that mean that I have to be happy with it? And, I should be happy. I know that my sadness and disappointment and regret and hesitation is wearing on DH. He is unhappy here, in Hawaii. He wants to move back home. And shouldn't he have a chance to live near his family? Shouldn't his family have a chance to get to know K better?
I guess I'm just selfish. And in the beginning, I suppose it's okay to be selfish. I'll come around. I'm an adapter, I'm a go-with-the-flow girl, I'll put on my happy face, and then I truly will be happy. I have six months to pout and then get myself together. It's a done deal. We are moving to Seattle.
001 // A New Journey
This summer, Summer 2013, my little family [DH - C & Toddler - K, and I] are embarking on a great journey. We are moving from Hawaii to Seattle, Washington, so DH can attend Law School in the fall. I will be leaving my family, friends, a job that I adore, K's caretaker (who is practically family), and the only real "grown-up" life I have known, so that DH can pursue his educational goals. I know that it will be hard in the short-run and so beneficial in the long run, but that doesn't make it any less difficult in the right now.
In the lack of blogs from the Momma not in law school perspective, I have decided to document our journey. This will be about the comings and goings, the ends and the beginnings, and everything in between.
0000 // Resources
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Before I start, I must make this blog pretty to look at. Here are some resources. Not sure how to make a post private, so everyone will get a chance to see them.
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