004 // The Waiting Game

We are still waiting for the official papers from the University. I think that DH has given them an unofficial "hold my spot" kind of thing while he waits for the official paperwork to be sent. I can't even remember what it was like to apply/wait to hear back from colleges. When I was applying to college, I feel like I heard back relatively quickly, however this is Law School, so I'm sure they do their own thing in their own way.

DH & I have also unofficially decided that I will be staying in Hawaii until Christmas. They say that the first year of Law School is the hardest, the most intense, the most time-consuming. DH reasoned that he would hardly see us at all. My argument was the stable income, the job, the insurance for K. It's so hard to give up your job, something that you have worked so hard for, have really felt like you have moved up in, for nothing. For no job lined up, for uncertainty. I could do that, I could make it happen, but I just cannot have no health insurance for K. I don't feel safe without it. So, unless DH can find a job that will provide insurance for his dependents, I am not comfortable giving up my job.

Plus, as I don't have my teaching license or an official certification in the Orton-Gillingham approach to phonics {which I an unofficial certification in, but the unofficial certification won't help me get any jobs or tutoring gigs, so it's not really helpful in the world outside of my job}, which will make it pretty difficult to find a teaching job in WA {Hawaii is more lax for private school teacher certifications, which is how I, the English major, am still able to teach}, which is what I want. So, if I stay for an additional 6 months, hopefully I will be able to get one or both and make me a more marketable asset.

It's not going to be easy to be away from DH. I don't know how K is going to take it. But, right now, it seems like the best choice. I know it will be really hard on him to be away from us, but like they say, he will be busy networking and studying and writing and lawing and all of those other things that I don't know anything about. It's not like we haven't been away from each other before. DH was in the Navy and we survived deployments. But not with a toddler. That part will be hard. But I'm sure that in 6 months, I will be ready to make my move to the mainland. I think it will be just the right amount of time.